But as much as we try to gain more knowledge, there are some things we will just never know. Whether it's because we can't find the answer or because it's just not something we truly will never understand, we will never know everything. I'm here to tell you that there are times where that is a wonderful thing.
A little over a year ago I started a new medication called a PARP inhibitor. I was very sick and chemo wasn't working anymore. My oncologist was able to get this medication for me in hopes that it would just help me feel better and give me a little of my life back. That was the knowledge we had and hope for. Guess what? God had so much more to show me and my family. Here is what happened this year.
- My cancer number, or CA-125 dropped from around 1350 to 46. While I'm not yet cancer-free, my disease is stable or shrinking. I never knew I would be thankful for stable disease.
- My energy has returned. While I'm still not where I was before cancer, I am able to do more with my family again. I was able to get to most of my children's sports events and other activities. I never knew I would be thankful for bleacher butt.
- I am able to be a wife and a mother again. I'm cooking again and finding so many new recipes to try. We don't have to rely on others to bring us food or help with household chores. I never knew that I would be happy to clean bathrooms.
God has blessed me in more ways than I can count through this cancer. I've been able to witness to many, help others through their journeys, and I have been given countless reminders of how God has my whole life in control. He has a better plan than I could ever dream up. It makes me love this passage even more:
It also reminds me of this passage :